Isn't it odd how somethings can change over night? One minute you are happy as a bug in the rug the next your whole world falls apart. Sometimes all it takes is slight clue that one thing is out of balance then BAM, your world just grinds to a stop.
I have to admit I shouldn't be surprised by a shift in my life, everything thus far has been an epic fail. From day one it seems like I God hates me. Believe in God or not, he hates me. Somewhere in a past life I made people suffer and now it is my turn to get what I have got coming to me.
Never would I have dreamed I was such an SOB but for some reason the powers to be feel like I deserve some major punishment. If it were just a slight crime I have had committed in my past life I would be sitting on a beach with a broken leg. Instead I am stuck in my own personal hell with no relief from pain and suffering.
By now my blog partner is trying to come up with a witty "life is what you make it" quote. But don't, it isn't necessary or wanted. I need none of your happy go lucky bullshit and yes I am sorry that I am tarnishing our blog. It just seems this is a fitting place to rant in self pity.
I have asked myself why a million times, why can't I have one thing, just one. No not possible. I will live long enough to see everything in my life fail then lay on my death bed with a head full of regrets to take with me. I have been through a good deal of adversity in my life and came out on top with a smile. But this by far has to be the darkest moment of my life and there is no way to fix it. For a guy like me who makes his living fixing broken shit, this is a real kick to the nuts.
Many say at least I have my health right? Well good deal, I can live longer to fail more. If all I had was one thing to hold onto, just one. But,,,,,,Just one.
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